When I was in 8th grade, I thought I had everything planned out regarding College. I knew that I wanted to attend my local community college to double-major and get an AA in Journalism and Photography, then transfer to my local University to receive a BA in both of those.
But, now, it seems as if those plans I thought I wanted to pursue are changing. I still want to major in Journalism and Photography, but I’m also considering Library Sciences. All three of those majors include things I am interested in. And on top of that, I’ve heavily thought about maybe going straight to University after High School.
Between my Junior and Senior year, I will meet the A-G requirements to do that, and thus, I want to pursue it. It’ll allow me to attend an online Christian University (I’m uncertain of where the world will be regarding COVID in 2023, so I’m really considering this option).
I’ve been looking into Universities and talking with my Guidance Counselor and family about the ideas I have in mind. However, thinking about something that is so far away (2 years, to be exact) stresses me. But even though I can get stressed regarding it, I cannot stop thinking about it; it feels as if this is one thing I’m always thinking about all the time.
But, I also feel fearful of not knowing if my plans and dreams are within God’s will and if He has something else in my mind for me. I’ve been wondering, “Will I be okay if God changes the plans?” And because of that, it seems as if I’m trying to plan it all myself, as I want things to go my way.
I realize that what I’m doing is wrong. Sure, it’s okay that I have ideas about what I want to pursue, but ultimately I have to trust God and ask Him for guidance. He already has everything figured out; He knows what College I’ll go to and what I’ll major in, but He just hasn’t shown me yet. I must be willing to let Him lead instead of worrying since I’m trying to figure it out myself.
A Bible verse that the Lord has been pressing on my heart as of lately is 1st Thessalonians 5:17.
It’s a concise verse, yet there is so much truth in it. In short, we should bring everything to God in prayer.
Honestly, I don’t pray nearly enough as I should be, as it’s something that I tend to put on the back burner. But I’m learning that spending time in prayer is a way to help my relationship with God grow since it is constant one-on-one communication with Him. I should be praying to Him about everything all the time; it’ll help me trust Him more and leave matters into His Hands.
This will be a challenging journey because I really have to trust God with this big decision. I don’t know what is to come or what He has in-store, which is why I cannot rely on myself. I do not have all the answers, and I’m certainly not perfect. I pray that the Lord may help me not just say it but actually live it out.