Trusting God with the Future

When I was in 8th grade, I thought I had everything planned out regarding College. I knew that I wanted to attend my local community college to double-major and get an AA in Journalism and Photography, then transfer to my local University to receive a BA in both of those.

But, now, it seems as if those plans I thought I wanted to pursue are changing. I still want to major in Journalism and Photography, but I’m also considering Library Sciences. All three of those majors include things I am interested in. And on top of that, I’ve heavily thought about maybe going straight to University after High School.

Between my Junior and Senior year, I will meet the A-G requirements to do that, and thus, I want to pursue it. It’ll allow me to attend an online Christian University (I’m uncertain of where the world will be regarding COVID in 2023, so I’m really considering this option).

I’ve been looking into Universities and talking with my Guidance Counselor and family about the ideas I have in mind. However, thinking about something that is so far away (2 years, to be exact) stresses me. But even though I can get stressed regarding it, I cannot stop thinking about it; it feels as if this is one thing I’m always thinking about all the time.

But, I also feel fearful of not knowing if my plans and dreams are within God’s will and if He has something else in my mind for me. I’ve been wondering, “Will I be okay if God changes the plans?” And because of that, it seems as if I’m trying to plan it all myself, as I want things to go my way.

I realize that what I’m doing is wrong. Sure, it’s okay that I have ideas about what I want to pursue, but ultimately I have to trust God and ask Him for guidance. He already has everything figured out; He knows what College I’ll go to and what I’ll major in, but He just hasn’t shown me yet. I must be willing to let Him lead instead of worrying since I’m trying to figure it out myself.

A Bible verse that the Lord has been pressing on my heart as of lately is 1st Thessalonians 5:17.

Pray without ceasing.

1st Thessalonians 5:17

It’s a concise verse, yet there is so much truth in it. In short, we should bring everything to God in prayer.

Honestly, I don’t pray nearly enough as I should be, as it’s something that I tend to put on the back burner. But I’m learning that spending time in prayer is a way to help my relationship with God grow since it is constant one-on-one communication with Him. I should be praying to Him about everything all the time; it’ll help me trust Him more and leave matters into His Hands.

Oh, what needless pain we bear; all because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.”

What A Friend We Have in Jesus

This will be a challenging journey because I really have to trust God with this big decision. I don’t know what is to come or what He has in-store, which is why I cannot rely on myself. I do not have all the answers, and I’m certainly not perfect. I pray that the Lord may help me not just say it but actually live it out.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.

Proverbs 3:5

What is something that you have learned about trusting God?

Managing Screen Time

One of my readers asked if I could do a post regarding this topic, and it’s entirely coincidental because it’s something that I have been working to implement in my life. I feel that I should not spend hours straight casually on the computer, as I have to spend a long time doing school every day. That is also precious time that can be used to do something more constructive. I’ve been wanting to spend more time with God throughout my days, too, so I think limiting how much time I spend on the computer will help.

Why I’m Not Grieving Over My “B”

Today was a nerve-wracking day. I knew that I had to take my finals for school, but I was so scared of my Honors Geometry final. Throughout this semester, I have struggled with many concepts and difficulties with understanding my teacher during class. Her teaching method does not compute with my brain, thus, asking for help didn’t help, and I could never reach her by phone or email.

Because of all of those things combine, I assumed that I would not do too well on my final. Although I received help from my Algebra I teacher and a classmate, I was still anxious.

Sunday Thoughts – My Goals for 2021

I am still taking in the fact that 2021 is here and 2020 is finally over. It seems crazy and almost impossible, but it’s all true. Since the end of last year, I have been thinking about what I want to aim towards this year. I am not much into resolutions, but more so goals.

My Word of the Year – 2021

Having a word of the year is something that I have seen many people to do. I have never thought much about having one until towards the end of my summer break.

We Made it to 2021

We made it to 2021, and it was only through God that we did. Last year was very unusual and so unexpected, at least for us. But all-in-all, it was a part of God’s plan.

With everything going on globally, it has been an eye-opener of how we really need to depend on God and trust Him. This ever-changing world is imperfectly unreliable.